Singular Focus

So, this morning I have been thinking about my desire to be married. There are reasons that, at 32, I am still single. It's fascinating how God will get us to process certain things...

Anyway, in a conversation with a friend, I was encouraged to do some study of James 4 and in particular the warning not to be double-minded. As I thought about it, what God brought to my mind is that I want to draw close to Him, and that my desire and purpose is to be singularly-focused.

For the past 16+ years, I have been following Christ. I could have lived my life with that desire to be married driving, and I could be married now if I had really been driven to make that happen. In fact, I had a love-letter of sorts in my 'other' box on facebook this morning. Don't know the person, won't follow up, message deleted, but still...

The point is this: I follow Christ. Period. My desire to be married must be in submission to that of drawing near to God and seeking to honor Him no matter what. There's a reason I am still single at 32: God has had other plans for me during this time, and has not yet said it's time to be married.

I still long for that day, and I enjoy being a homemaker when I can (like now, while job-searching), and these are things I'm passionate about, but my heart's singular focus is to glorify God, not to find a husband and make my will be done. His will, not mine!

Those are my thoughts this morning.